Transcript 0:32 The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not be in want. 0:40 He makes me lie down in green. He leaves me by quiet blue. 0:47 Yeah. The walk through darkness valleys. You need your protection and guidance 0:55 are comforting me every day that I know. 1:01 Oh. Oh. 1:08 Oh 1:17 me in the presence of my enemies in front of my accusers. You're enjoying 1:22 me. You and my desire and my overflowing mercy beauty and your love are chasing 1:29 after me everywhere that I go. 1:34 Every day of my life. Everywhere I go. 1:42 Every day of my life. 2:02 You refresh and restore my soul. 2:09 You lead me in righteous pathways for your name's sake alone. 2:17 You've invited me to make your house my own. 2:24 I'll do no evil for you are with me everywhere 2:30 I go. 2:38 Oh, 2:45 it's got to be easy for me in the presence of my enemies in front of my accusers. You're enjoying me. You and 2:53 all I had is overflowing. Beauty I love chasing 2:58 after me. Everywhere I go. 3:04 Every day of my life. Everywhere 3:10 I go. Every day. Everywhere we go. 3:18 Every day of my life, let's pray where we go. Every day of my life. 3:47 Welcome to the Prolife Team podcast. I'm Jacob and I'm here with Beth and we're going to learn about a new prolife 3:54 movie. Beth, would you introduce yourself um for myself and others who 4:00 may not know you as of yet? Absolutely. Um first of all, Jacob, I want to say uh that I am excited to be 4:07 on the podcast. I'm really grateful for the work that you're doing and the audience that you connect with. uh and 4:15 uh when uh you know I had this opportunity I said it's it's actually perfect timing in a way. Um so I am 4:24 Reverend Beth Caulfield. I'm a pastor turned filmmaker. I am ordained in the 4:31 global Methodist church and we are very pro-life and I am um uh commissioned or 4:41 ordained uh into uh or appointed to a ministry of film making. And my first 4:50 feature faith-based is uh called Conceivable. and it'll be out next year 4:56 in theaters and and other places. And I am right now uh doing pre-release 5:04 showings of it with pregnancy centers and other pro-life organizations and 5:09 churches uh as we ramp up and get ready for marketing the film. So, I am someone 5:16 who has been involved in the pro-life movement uh personally through my own 5:22 personal experience, which I love to share with you about and how all this has come into making a movie and God's 5:29 involvement in that. Wow. H this is exciting. Um so, so tell 5:35 us tell us a little bit more about Conceivable. Tell us where the name came from. maybe tell us um how things got 5:41 started or maybe about the you know the you know the idea or the goals that you 5:47 might have had making this movie something. Yeah, tell us more. Absolutely. Well, I think I should 5:52 should back up and tell you that uh so in a few years ago uh when uh I was um 6:00 very involved in uh lay people ministry, I was teaching Bible studies. I was uh 6:07 teaching studies in prisons and so forth. Uh I had a call on me to go to 6:12 seminary and uh I had my kids were getting older and I started recognizing 6:18 that this was uh you know something that I could do as as my kids were getting uh 6:25 getting ready to leave the nest and um had a full ride to seminary and was one 6:31 year into it and this was in my 40s, right? And uh one year into it found out 6:38 I was pregnant. That was not my plan. Uh 6:43 and it was very uh challenging when I went through the experience of of course 6:51 the shock and and surprise and all that women go through. Uh but then what I 6:57 found was the journey for older women uh and even women of faith of of navigating 7:04 an unplanned pregnancy both with within the church as well as uh with the 7:11 medical community and uh I won't give away all the story of the movie but it 7:17 is based on my story um when this originally happened with me uh a couple 7:25 couple of years into it when my daughter is, spoiler alert, I have a beautiful daughter, um who is one of three and and 7:34 she is uh 13 years younger than my others. Uh she um uh when she was about 7:42 two, uh I recognized that it was time to uh start talking about what I had 7:48 encountered. And so I wrote articles and my first one was for Celebrate Life 7:55 magazine. It's by the American Life League and I just shared about my 8:00 experience and some of the the myths that needed to be dispelled uh as well 8:06 as uh to encourage people. Uh I also then um was asked to write for a number 8:12 of magazines about it and at that time thought about maybe I need to write a 8:17 book not thinking of it as a a book so much of telling my story but a book of 8:25 uh encouragement and facing some of the the myths and so forth out there. um 8:32 couldn't get the book together to with a publisher. And at that point, I was back 8:38 in seminary and busy and so forth. And so just kind of let it go, you know, and 8:44 went on uh with my call uh to to uh join the church and and pastor church and and 8:51 so forth. And uh was very involved in a vibrant um ordained ministry and still 8:59 am. Um but uh in um in the last couple 9:05 of years I've moved into film making and I did write another book before this and 9:11 that's called People Throw Rocks at Things That Shine: A Clergy Whistleblowers 9:17 Tale. It's about my joys and uh as well as challenges uh that you encounter in 9:24 ministry especially uh within the realm of being a more traditional pastor in a 9:31 more progressive denomination and and that's where I had originally started 9:37 out my ministry in uh the United Methodist Church. I'm now in the global Methodist church. I was one of the 9:43 leaders in finding that in founding that. Whole lot of backstory there. Um 9:49 but uh once we became global Methodists um I felt in my heart that it was time 9:54 to write the story of um of my pregnancy and uh and in my mind I was thinking 10:02 about a book but I just had trouble getting the story 10:08 out in that way. And instead uh what I started recognizing was this was a 10:15 script. this was a movie and I I went back and uh took some screenwriting 10:20 courses and um wrote the story and um and there's a lot of ministry involved 10:28 behind the scenes in in what I'm about to tell you, but wrote the story, won a a faith-based contest for the story, uh 10:36 met a studio head, um very quickly have put this um movie together and and it's 10:44 been just God's fingerprints all over it uh in terms of how just things have 10:50 lined up. And so we've completed the movie and are um about to distribute it 10:57 as I said next year uh in theaters but are doing some pre-release stories uh 11:03 showings. It is um called conceivable uh as kind of a double entandra there. 11:10 It's conceivable for a woman in her 40s to be conceivable 11:16 and uh that is one of the first uh myths that that I want to um you know deal 11:22 with. There is such an overplay of the message today about infertility. Uh you 11:30 know we hear a lot of stories of many women are choosing to have children later in life waiting uh and then we 11:37 hear a lot of stories about fertility challenges. Well my story uh is one of 11:43 many that kind of blows that out of the water um in that uh I was not going 11:50 through any kind of fertility treatment or anything like that. God found it as the the right timing for me to have my 11:56 third child. Um the other piece that uh came through um in my story uh is the 12:05 just the variety of advice that I got out there um from well-meaning friends 12:11 Christian and non-Christian as well as leaders within the church including my 12:16 own pastor and that vi advice was some of it pro-life and some of it Beth you have a 12:24 choice and uh and that was surpris surprising to me. It was also um 12:31 confusing and difficult at a time when you're in shock. Um it's uh scary when 12:39 you have uh uh medical advice uh that nudges you toward or abortion and and I 12:47 and I show that very clearly in the movie uh with our team uh and uh and at 12:55 the same time having uh Christian leaders uh say the same thing. You know, 13:01 you have a choice. Um, all that's happening while, you know, your hormones are going wild. Um, you're, as I said, 13:09 you're in shock. Uh, you're thinking about, gosh, this wasn't my plan. How am I going to 13:16 afford this? I'm about to pay for college. We'll never retire. What if this child does have problems? um all 13:24 those things with that push that well if you're going to abort a child it's 13:31 better to make that decision sooner than later. So all those pressures that are 13:37 out there on women um I wanted it to come to the forefront and that's why I wanted the story um put out there. Um so 13:46 the movie is based on my story. It's it's semi-autobiographical. Um but the the main point is uh that it 13:54 shows uh compassion for women in the situation and it also uh shows that if 14:03 you seek God, he'll make your path straight. And uh and I am very clearly 14:08 showing there those God moments where God was was speaking um to me through 14:13 other people, through through prayer, through many ways. Um making it clear 14:19 that he was with me and he had a plan with this. And uh and the hope is to 14:24 encourage others uh to when they um have really any kind of unplanned event in 14:32 life to seek God and let him make your path straight. And um it um the the 14:39 movie uh is also intended to be a conversation starter. Uh, I've written 14:44 it in a way that, you know, I describe it as uh, it's unplanned 14:50 meets uh, war room in a cheaper by the dozen kind of way. 14:56 So it it's uh the intent is while this is of course you know a heavy subject I 15:02 try to handle it in a a nonheavy way uh that is uh done so that uh it is not um 15:11 uh seen as as judgmental but rather um uh evoking conversation. It's the kind 15:19 of movie that pro-life Christians can feel comfortable bringing uh their 15:26 pro-choice friends, both Christian and non-Christian, too, and have a good conversation. Um, the hope is that it 15:34 not be uh so uncomfortable or uh uh um 15:41 legalistic that it that it, you know, evokes people to just not want to, you know, it's one of those movies. So, uh, 15:48 so that's it. You know, we've got a terrific cast, um, that includes, uh, 15:54 probably the biggest name that people know in there is Dean Kaine. Uh, he plays an OBGYn. Uh, I co-direct it with 16:03 the the star in the movie. Her name is Jana Lee Hamlin. She does a phenomenal 16:08 job. Uh, and then Eddie Mcccleintoch um, plays, you know, the the the dad who 16:14 really pulls through. And that's all I'll say on that. Wow. Yeah, this is very enticing and I'm 16:20 really I'm looking forward to seeing this someday. So, I'm imagining the 16:26 Well, it's sort of it's I mean, it's a bit I'm not sure if I I should say the 16:31 word understandable or normal or expected, but none of those words really fit. But there's certain doctors that 16:37 are okay with promoting abortion. Yeah. and and being the, you know, 16:43 whether it's this variable or the age variable of like above 40, like that's 16:48 something that not not to say that that's it's it's still shocking, but it 16:54 it really just emphasizes the need to have uh a doctor who agrees with someone's values or or um position on 17:04 life, but then the fact that there were pro-life or, you know, Christian leaders 17:09 or Christian, you people in your voices that were speaking 17:15 um on both sides of this, you know, both um promoting life or promoting really 17:20 think about your options. Um boy, that's a that's that's pretty shocking. It makes me think of um the good Samaritan 17:28 story, but instead of someone getting beat up, let's imagine you're on that road and you're you're pregnant and 17:34 you're looking for, you know, you're trying to navigate, you know, your way to that new city and there's a there's a 17:41 you know, someone walks by and it's a religious leader and they're instead of, you know, maybe instead of just ignoring you, they're promoting you to go the 17:47 wrong way. um or just not being helpful, trying to, you know, take that shortcut 17:53 that is dangerous and and violates life. Um and then yeah, but it just makes me 17:59 think of like the different people that were interacting with you and it's very different than the Good Samaritan story, 18:04 but just imagining like that that structure and how you had different people influence with different positive 18:10 messages or or questioning that positive message with a negative or, you know, trying to sew in doubt. 18:17 That's Yeah. Wow. Well, so so that is, you know, one one of the the things that the film brings 18:23 out is about surrounding yourself with with good Christian faithful friends who 18:29 understand um God's word. And uh you know, the the other thing that I I the 18:36 movie um you know brings out is the realities of what research is showing. I 18:42 don't know if you've had anyone on here yet talk about the Pew Research Center. 18:47 um a study that came out just last year uh about people's views on whether any 18:54 and all abortion should be legal or not within the church. And what that showed 18:59 is um just like uh the US adults in general um most people in the church say 19:08 that you know abortion is is something that should be supported. Um the only 19:14 category and you know Again, it's Pew Research 2024 and and and you can look 19:20 that up and we could probably put a link in the show notes, but um there's a a great graphic that shows uh white 19:27 evangelicals are the only group that that is uh against uh free reign 19:34 abortion, right? Uh uh white non-eangelical Protestants, Catholics, 19:40 black Protestants, so forth hugely flipped are for it. And so that's just 19:48 Christians in general, but we need to be tailoring and recognizing that that is 19:54 the world that we are in in the church. And then another survey um that was done 20:00 by George Bara um and I believe this one's 2022 um points out that only 37% of Christian 20:09 pastors in the United States hold a biblical worldview. Right? And that's hard to understand 20:16 that um but um by a biblical um you know he lays out what a biblical worldview is 20:23 but involves being believe in absolute moral grounded truth and the that's focused on what the Bible teaches us uh 20:31 and uh you know he goes for goes for it gives more info on that but he shows 20:39 that in that survey even only half of evangelical ical pastors possess what he 20:47 calls a biblical worldview and that's that's a reputable survey of course. So 20:54 I bring um a uh a lens to that by just showing the 21:01 story right and uh and I hope that it will lead to more work within the church 21:10 uh to uh really you know address this pastor. What do you say? I know you're in a difficult position, right? Pastors 21:18 have very difficult jobs and uh as many pro-life workers know who try to 21:24 interact with a church, especially in the pregnancy centers or um that um it 21:30 it's it can be difficult. not necessarily because the pastor isn't supportive of their work, um but rather 21:38 that they're just don't want to um they don't want to rock the boat. And uh I I 21:45 am hoping that this uh movie opens up more conversations on how do we reach 21:53 the pastors? And you know, I think there's a number of of great resources that are beginning to be put together 22:00 out there. I love uh Love Life's House of Refuge uh work where they I don't 22:06 know if you've had them on here, but Yeah, we have. Yeah, they're Yeah, they they're doing some great 22:12 work. I'd love to see more of that. You know, Rand Warren's book about uh the 22:17 alternative to abortion. Uh he he does some great sound theological work in 22:23 that um that can be helpful for bolstering um pastors. You know, it's um 22:30 pastors face a lot of pressures not only from within their congregation but 22:35 especially if they're in more progressive denominations from the denomination itself. 22:42 Um you know I I give an example of the denomination that I came out of uh the 22:47 United Methodist Church that I left for the global Methodist church the more traditional one. um at their general 22:54 conference um uh last year uh they passed a petition uh affirming a right 23:01 to abortion and and uh and it passed the floor. Now when they uh went to uh 23:10 revise their social principles, they tweaked it and it still is less 23:16 supportive of abortion, but it came that close. And that is um you know uh in my 23:25 belief an alarm that people who are involved in their churches need to know 23:30 what's going on. Uh so while the book doesn't go into those or the movie 23:35 doesn't go into those details uh it does show that hey we need to think about 23:41 this. This is another area for us to to do more work on. 23:47 Wow. Yeah. And so in the word abortion, sometimes people will include subtopics 23:55 into it and then some people don't include certain subtopics into it. So like if I said the word milk, you know, 24:02 it probably would include 2% whole milk, skim milk, fat-free milk, but it may or may not include the dairyfree almond 24:08 milk, you know, I don't know. But but so when I say the word abortion, so like when you're saying the you know the 24:15 group that was you know saying abortion, I guess the question is is did they 24:21 detail out what was included and what was not included? Because that's a it's abortion is almost like the word milk 24:27 when it comes. There's a lot of there's a lot of things underneath it like for example um medical surgical abortions of 24:35 course but then there's also ectopic pregnancies where sometimes the life of 24:42 the child is ended before it ends naturally in order to not have a 24:48 ruptured fallopian tube. And personally, I think that is wise to do. And I know 24:55 that not everyone agrees with with me on that, but I think that that is smart to 25:01 preserve the life of the mother. Um, and and I'm wondering if that was included 25:06 or not included, and that might have created that. I'm not sure what what created the friction, you know, being 25:12 against certain abortions. And then there's always the then there's also the scenarios, the stories like rape and 25:17 incest. Um, and personally I think those are hard those are hard things to think about. But but at the same time I have 25:25 seen the fruit of where God has used the life of a of a gentleman by the name of Stephen who was born out of a case like 25:33 that and he his life is evidence of how precious life is even when it comes from 25:39 very hard beginnings. And so I'm wondering yeah what was included in that word abortion or how do they how do they 25:45 detail it out? Right. Right. and and and the details of of to that level I do not believe were 25:52 included. It was more focused on uh women's reproductive health. You know 25:58 that that language and uh and uh and their right to it. You know what I would 26:04 say is I'm in total agreement with you. I I love some of the work that um APLOG 26:10 uh has been doing, American Association of Pro-life OBGYNS. Yeah. um that uh they have done a good 26:18 job of saying that you know we're really talking about induced abortion and there 26:23 are categories within induced abortion. Ectopic pregnancies are a different thing. Um issues uh of of preserving uh 26:32 a life are a different thing. Um so I um I I I 26:39 believe that the most important thing are these conversations need to happen. 26:46 I think that there can be much more um gained by having an environment where 26:53 people who are on both sides of this can sit down and listen to one another and 26:58 really see where we're talking apples to apples and where we're not. And and I 27:04 think that that's that's part of the problem right now. And that's part of my hope is to provide something that yes, 27:12 I'm not going to deny it's a pro-life movie by any means, but it is something that um raises a lot of the issues that 27:21 that people are either afraid of or misinformed of what other people's views 27:26 are on it. Yeah. I I was doing some research on um 27:32 uh abortion abolitionists and and they were actually opposed to you know the 27:38 the procedure of helping a woman in a topic pregnancy which sort of threw me off. I didn't know that there was a 27:44 group that was um that I don't know it just drew me I I didn't expect that and but but at the 27:51 same time sometimes we all get grouped into the same sort of like you know 27:57 under the word milk or under you know under the word pro-life or under the word against abortion and we have 28:03 there's some groups that are um that are very unique in some of their positions or you know or I would call wrong I 28:10 guess but um and and so yeah, I I would agree a topic pregnancy it does end the 28:17 life of a six-w weekek old um child when 28:22 being removed from the fallopian tube. But at the at the benefit of not having 28:28 a rupture and and saving the life of the mother if it were, you know, if it were to rupture that fallopian tube and it's 28:34 just simply like it's not an abortion because abortion usually means like there's a a chance for the child to live 28:41 and and there's a there's an end that's you know a choice being made to end that life. And so I would yeah I would agree 28:47 with how you how you phrased it, how you said like that's not under abortion. But I'm just wondering like if someone 28:53 included some language like that, it makes it so we have to sort of know what words we're using and what's included 28:58 because some of these some of these words get used different ways by different groups. 29:03 Exactly. Yeah, I you know I I I think um you know I as I said I'm I love what 29:10 applog has put out there but it it hits on you know where so my calling in my 29:16 ministry in this film ministry is to address what I'll call morally complex 29:23 issues. You know, we the reality is um there there are truths in this world, 29:30 but we're also in a fallen world and there are all kinds of ramifications 29:35 from that both, you know, medically in relationally, you know, on and on, 29:41 right? Uh we should not uh and I think we do a disservice to our cause as 29:48 Christians as as well as pro-life advocates. We shouldn't shy away from 29:53 addressing complexities and just saying, "Oh, you know, it's just that's it. It's 29:59 one way." Um, but instead have faith uh in God in engaging in these things and 30:07 encourage uh and and as the movie shows um you know, my character goes on what 30:13 I'll call a a spiritual pilgrimage, right? um where she really really needs 30:19 to hear from God because she's hearing there might be something wrong with her baby. She's hearing, you know, this is 30:25 going to mess up my life. She's hearing a whole bunch of things. Um and she needs to get along with God and and he 30:33 shows up. Wow. So, that really sort of So, I want 30:38 to ask you um what seems to me like a hard question, but it may not be hard to you. So, and based on what you just 30:46 said, I feel like there's a lot of um uh um a lot of parallels here. So in the 30:53 story of Abraham and Isaac when Abraham was asked to sacrifice his son Isaac and 31:01 and um to to test his faith um that's one of the stories in the Bible that I 31:08 see as difficult as someone who's against abortion because you know do I 31:14 do I you know I I I ask myself like do I always follow God or am I or do I have 31:21 this rule And I and what I've come to is that I should always follow God and and and and 31:29 follow his direction from the Bible from from you know the way he speaks, the way 31:36 he communicates. I should follow him. And and and I pull that and and I think 31:43 about the Abraham Isaac situation of trust God and keep following him even if 31:48 what he tells you sometimes is really hard and and so would you based on what 31:54 you just said how you went to you you're following God even through hard times you're getting advice from people who 32:00 seem like they're Christian leaders in your life. Can you sort of, you know, maybe try and 32:07 think about the Abraham Isaac story and your story and sort of just speak about that and how you chose to follow God and 32:14 speak more about that? Yeah. Uh you first of all I I thank you for bringing that up because that is the 32:20 perfect story to bring up for this. Uh and yes, you're right. You know, uh the 32:27 the big lesson that I take out of and many theologians take out of that Abraham Isaac story is are we going to 32:36 um follow God no matter what? Even it no matter what it looks like through man, 32:43 even through our own moral laws, which that's really freaks me out too, right? 32:51 It's hard to grapple with. It's very hard to grapple but I think it brings to 32:56 another point and that is are we about the cause? Are we about following God 33:04 who is behind the cause? Yeah. Right. And and uh and I think that is 33:10 very key and Jacob I don't have to tell you that's a huge issue. 33:16 And uh and and I think that um back to to my story and in the movie itself um 33:23 that's exactly um what happens with someone who is in 33:29 that situation there's so much confusion and I think that's life in general. when 33:34 we all find ourselves in unplanned situations, you know, the the job is lost, you know, whatever it is, um there 33:44 are many paths. Uh and sometimes sometimes it's it can get confusing. Um 33:52 but if you're seeking God with all your heart, you know, through prayer, through through getting with godly friends, 33:58 which I do show some some wonderful people who had some great advice in the movie as well. Um but uh and getting 34:05 along, you know, really um journaling and everything else, he shows up. Will 34:12 the answer necessarily be light bulb easy? No. It's usually a faith 34:20 decision, but you know in your heart that that's where you're being led to. There's nothing wrong with going out and 34:27 getting sound medical advice. That's that should be that's important there. 34:32 Um and and and I'm certainly not um u discouraging people from um from seeking 34:38 out advice from Christian leaders. That is very important too. Um I am um more 34:45 importantly just saying that if you use the resources that God has given you, the Bible, Christian leaders, friends, 34:53 and your own personal relationship with him, he'll make the path straight. When 34:58 I chose, and again, I can't give away the movie, but when I chose Yes. I'm 35:04 just I'm I'm done with testing. I'm Excuse me. 35:11 No worries. I'm done with testing. I'm done with 35:17 doubting. Um I also um you know I I reveal some things that that I found out 35:24 in in the movie. But um when I made that decision in my heart to make that leap 35:32 and I did that with my husband um there was such a release and and you 35:39 know people know that in many decisions that they make when they follow God even 35:45 the first one to just accept him as Lord and Savior. So, um 35:51 that that is uh key to our journey on this and um and and it's my hope that 35:57 this movie be seen more as a journey of faith than anything else. 36:03 Oh, that's so good. So, I'm going to take you on another So, one of the ways I like the way my church will often um 36:11 help us understand what to do in different scenarios is we try and reflect on scripture. 36:18 um based on what we're currently going through and and and trying to you know 36:23 ask questions and trying to really you know almost like a journal a journaling kind of way to understand how scripture 36:30 can apply or at least some scripture can apply to a certain situation. So um 36:35 based on Psalms 23 when you were going through this hard time and you end up 36:41 choosing you went you chose yes how did what were your green pastures? What what was God putting in your path that was 36:49 really delightful and restored your soul? And then what was your still waters as in you had to follow him, but 36:56 it was also very refreshing for your soul? What were your Yeah. What was your green pastures and still waters during 37:02 this time? Oh, that's a great question. And and I and I'm wondering, you must have watched 37:07 the trailer for the movie because there's I have not seen the trailer. There's a powerful scene that is revealed in the 37:14 trailer of her praying the 23rd Psalm 37:19 in a beautiful setting. I would I'd like to see it. I just haven't seen it yet. Lord, 37:24 no, we we you I'll just tell your viewers they can go to our our website 37:29 um which isthemov.com. There's a whole lot of information about it, including the trailer. Um but uh 37:37 yeah and so we filmed she went on a spiritual um u pilgrimage which I actually did uh to France. It was part 37:45 of my seminary work and I was pregnant and I and I went uh and um getting the 37:52 opportunity in in that case I went to some beautiful houses of worship, old 37:58 cathedrals, you know, chartra over a thousand years old, right? Um different 38:04 places of of Christian heritage and having the opportunity to pray and mine 38:10 were desperate prayers at that time. uh and um to I I I walked a labyrinth. I 38:17 had time to journal and I had a powerful friend in my life uh who really 38:24 encouraged me. And then God showed up in an amazing way. And I can't I show it in 38:30 the movie, but I'm not going to I'm not going to tell you, Jacob. Um um but uh 38:36 it was those that was a time of of of 38:42 refreshing especially once I released just released myself to the Lord and and really 38:49 enjoyed um we show um time that I spent in a Christian community called Taz 38:56 which is in um Burgundy, France. absolutely beautiful. They're worshiping 39:02 with people from all over the world, all different denominations. Um that's one 39:07 of the things that I that I love to um expose people to through this movie is is people don't even know places like 39:14 that exist, right? Um but um so so that was my refreshing. I I the the the uh 39:23 challenging times were just uh in the beginning. Um 39:30 I I prayed so much and I show this in the movie when I was scared. Um when I 39:36 was I you know I will share one line in the movie that was true. I I I think I 39:41 let God down. That's how confused I was. I let God down. I'm supposed to be in training for 39:48 pastor and do something else. Now I'm going to be having another kid. I I 39:53 messed up. And those were one of the one of the many lies that that the enemy, 39:58 you know, puts in front of you that are easy to grasp and uh let take hold in 40:04 your life. Oh, that's so good. So, I want to ask you a follow-up question about Psalms 40:10 23. So, with those who were telling you the, you know, essentially promoting 40:15 abortion through maybe soft language like, you know, look at all your options, but yet still opening up that 40:22 space. Um, let's just for, you know, for Psalms 23 language, let's just put them 40:28 into the under the word enemy. I'm not saying that they're your enemy, but I'm just saying like, so in that in the 40:33 passage where it says, um, you know, he prepares a table for you in the presence 40:38 of your enemies, meaning people that were pushing you in the wrong direction in this case. Yes. um how you know what was that like to to 40:47 you know to have those people who were promoting you know other choices and options and maybe not the best not 40:53 encouragement at least and what was it like to for God to take care of you and 40:58 to provide a meal and and while your enemies were looking on in that time. 41:06 What was that like? Well, I I I think that next line in the psalm, he anoints 41:11 my head with oil, right? And and I think that um both my faith in knowing where 41:20 to turn even though I was confused and scared and everything else, but also 41:27 having other voices in my life that spoke, you know, who just were there 41:32 with me. I mean there were um there were friends who you know spent hours on the 41:39 phone with me praying and encouraging me and you know listening to my tears 41:44 listening to my you know disappointment and all those all those things that I'm 41:50 very honest about in the movie you know and I I think that that's an important 41:55 part of of telling a good story is being honest and not making it just sugarcoat 42:02 it. And I think that's um I'm off of your topic here a little bit, but this is one that's important to me uh as a 42:08 filmmaker. I believe one of the many criticisms of of Christian films is we 42:14 tend to sugarcoat things and we're getting better at not doing that. And that's that's where I'm called. And I 42:20 think that that brings people into it. But um yeah, the the that um I I think 42:27 that God brought this one of one of the things um that um has come about through 42:34 this is he knew that I was someone who would u bring these issues to the 42:39 surface. Um I didn't know that. I I never, you know, I I in a million years, 42:46 Jacob, I never thought that this would be something I'd be talking about and it would be a platform for ministry. that 42:52 is important. uh but cogn and and I love the fact that you're connected with a PLOG uh because they 43:00 have to deal with um a majority uh or a large portion of 43:06 the medical community um taking the opposite stance on life than what APL 43:11 you know APL is just you know they're amazing medical professionals who are 43:17 are um aligned with God in life and and then the same thing is true 43:23 about this the sister organization called um American College of Pediatricians AC uh peds or the they're 43:30 also you know very similar to a PLOG where they're essentially fighting that same fight but with pediatricians and 43:36 the you know uh helping children with health concerns and issues and and um 43:43 and all to say is it just sounds like I'm imagining like the body of Christ where you know you're you're working 43:50 with this ag group and the messaging that they've been fighting on well working on for a long time. But you're 43:56 bringing in this ministry um pastoral videographer cog into the or 44:04 or puzzle piece into this uh puzzle or the body of Christ and and helping um 44:11 serve communities through um telling the story 44:16 um and really supporting these pro-life doctors with something that they have been trying to communicate 44:24 um through. Yeah. But yeah, but maybe not as videographers, maybe not as a pastor, but as doctors. Um, how does 44:31 that how does that resonate? That idea of like, you know, being a part of the body of Christ and and trying to help, 44:38 you know, a PLOG with getting this message out. I agree. I I I I you know, it's it's 44:45 amazing to be um part of my journey through the film has just getting to 44:51 know all the amazing pro-life work that's been out there. You know, honestly, I knew about the right the 44:56 right to life march. That was about it. I, you know, I knew there were pregnancy centers out there and I pastored 45:02 churches where we have partnered with them. But did I really understand the 45:08 the depth of everything that is going on in this movement, good and bad, right? 45:13 Um uh and uh and to be a part of that to bring in a needed peace. Um that's just 45:21 a blessing and uh so it it's just been wonderful. 45:28 Awesome. Well, Beth, before we close out, do you have any final thoughts that you'd like to share or can you also just 45:33 mention the the website again as well? Yeah. Yeah. I I I'll mention the website. It's it's um conceivable.com. 45:42 We also are on Facebook and Instagram. People can help the movie out by signing 45:48 up for uh our newsletter on the or for, you know, announcements about showings. 45:55 uh they can follow us on social media, but also I'm really uh looking for 46:02 pregnancy centers and other groups who may want to do a pre-release showing of the movie. Um we're we're doing those 46:09 all over the country. Um you can email me. Um I'd love to um there's an email 46:15 on the website, but uh my email maybe we can put it in show notes. Um 46:20 yeah, just email it to me and I can put it in there. Uh, and I think if anyone would like to, you know, turn that 46:27 pre-release screening into a fundraising Yes. um, opportunity, it probably is already 46:32 built that way, but that, you know, that would be just an easy layer to tack on 46:38 to a really fun, insightful, enjoyable, encouraging event. Yeah. Yeah. Um, centers are doing that. 46:46 I'm also speaking at banquetss and those kinds of things. So yeah, I mean, I'm 46:51 here to serve and um and it's such an important ministry that folks are doing out there and uh you know, God is making 46:59 it good. Awesome, Beth. Well, would you close out this podcast in a prayer um and and just 47:06 with the expectation that those who are listening will join in. Absolutely. Let's pray. Oh heavenly 47:12 father, Lord, we um just uh praise you for the way that uh you are so good, 47:19 that you give us life, uh that you protect life, and that you give us sound 47:26 teachings and um and hearts uh to recognize the preciousness of it. And 47:34 Lord, I just pray that um um that Jacob is continues to be blessed and bless 47:40 others through this podcast. That those who are listening uh as well are finding 47:46 um more strength as they uh put on their um their hearts for this ministry that 47:53 they are doing as well as their armor of God in doing it. And Lord, I just pray 47:59 your blessings on uh on my ministry as well. and and this film uh as we go 48:04 through the many hurdles in the film making world and Lord uh that we would 48:10 just continue to lift one another up as those cogs in the wheel of the body of 48:16 Christ and uh Lord uh thank you for this opportunity. This I pray in Jesus's 48:22 name. Amen. Amen. Before I stop the recording, I want to say one more thing on you know 48:28 end the recording. So, I'm going to put there's a my the church I go to is an oversized home church. Um, and we we do 48:36 a lot of uh well, I say we as in them. I'm I'm I I enjoy the music, but I'm not 48:42 one of the music creators, but we as a church create a lot of music. And so, 48:47 the song that I put at the beginning will be a ref a song that was written by 48:52 uh Sue Seepen, who's a one of the pastors at my church. and and she wrote the song based on Psalms 23 and it's 49:00 called uh Everywhere. And so I'm going to write uh I'll put that one at the beginning of the podcast and at the end 49:06 of the podcast I'll put one written by Mark, another pastor at our church who wrote who who wrote one about the armor 49:11 of God. And he wrote it with uh Eric Seen, another one of pastors at our 49:16 oversized home church. But anyways, just so you know that these um the songs the 49:23 will be coming from um the church band that is at my church and the church band 49:28 is called Skeptic Chickens and you can look it up on Spotify or anywhere and um 49:35 but yeah, we'll be playing the song and a lot of the the songs they craft are written based on passages of the Bible 49:42 and so some of the songs seem obscure or maybe hard to follow, but if you know that it goes based on a chapter in the 49:48 book and chapter in the Bible, it starts to make a lot more sense. And so that's where they they cut they originate from 49:54 is trying to um take ideas and passages and turning them into songs and and 49:59 effectively we're all learning the Bible if we listen to these songs, which I really enjoy. Um but uh anyways, that's 50:05 where Yeah. Uh but I'll put I'm going to put those song I often put these songs in the 50:11 beginning and the end, but I never explain where they come from. And like the last episode or one of the recent 50:17 episodes had um one about um being in the fire which you know it comes with where when Jesus was in the fire with 50:24 the three and it's a really yeah we have a lot of just really awesome songs that all that are built based on like and a 50:31 lot of the songs are actually named based on like a book of the Bible and that chapter. Like that's usually the 50:37 most common naming scheme that we've used. And um but anyway, I just wanted to put this note at the end so people 50:42 can know where all these songs are coming from. 51:04 Turn around. Take a step. Turn around. 51:10 Take a step. Put on the armor of God. 51:15 Put on the armor of God. Put on the 51:20 armor of God. Put on the armor of God. Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty 51:28 power. Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty 51:35 power. Turn around. Take a step. Turn around. 51:44 Take a step. We're going to war. We're going to war. We're going to war. We're 51:51 going to war. Not against flesh, but against the darkness. 52:00 Not against flesh, but against the darkness. 52:10 Turn around. Take a step. Turn around. 52:15 Take a step. Put on the armor of God. 52:20 Put on the armor of God. Put on the 52:25 armor of God. Put on the armor of God. Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty 52:33 power. Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty 52:40 power. Turn around. Take a step. Turn around. 52:49 Take a step. We're going to war. We're going to war. We're going to war. We're 52:56 going to war. Not against flesh, but against the darkness. 53:05 Not against flesh, but against the darkness. 53:15 Turn around, take a step. Turn around, 53:20 take a step. Turn around, take a step. 53:25 And now 53:31 the truth of righteousness, 53:37 the sandals of peace, the shield of faith, 53:44 the helmet of salvation, the blood of the spirit, 53:51 the armor of God, the armor God 54:03 turn around to take a step to turn around 54:15 the breath of the peace. 54:25 The helmet of salvation, the sword of the spirit. 54:32 The armor of God. The armor of God. 54:53 Look around. Take a step. Turn around. 54:58 Take a step. Pray in the Father. Pray in the Son. Pray in the spirit for the holy 55:06 day to come. Pray in the Father. Pray in the Son. Pray in the spirit for the holy 55:13 day to come. Pray in the Father. Pray in the Son. Pray in the spirit for the holy 55:20 day to come. Heat. Heat. Heat. 55:31 Praise the M. 55:48 God praise 55:56 God.